"..So here
I am
Don't know
how to
say this.
The only
thing I
know is
awkward
silence.."

we dont need no water let the mother fuckers burn - 05.04.2003//5:32 pm

i've been home for 2 hours and i'm already drunk. now i just want to sleep but i have to go to that concert tonight unless it's storming really bad.

this weekend was amazing! i hung out with Mikey and James and Derek the entire time we were at the hotel. I was always in the guys rooms. Woo. I smoked both nights, so I think i was semi-pleasant instead of in withdrawl. even though everyone had non-smoking rooms. i never got caught. i knew the rooms to go to to get cigarettes and pot and alcohol.

when i was in there once, i ended up ironing Mikeys shirt. Then james decided to get naked to get in the shower. when he got out he was running around the room naked. you know how much trouble i would have gotten in if MrE had walked in? LOTS. No one thought i smoked, and once i told them what all i do they assumed i was a slut. james even made up a song about me. something like '*megans wearing a red shirt and she looks hot. shes going to suck me off now if everyone would just leave. she saw my peter and really enjoyed it' hahahaha. good fun. then the phone rang and james was talking to someone, i think it was jesse, and said "yeah megans aobut to suck me off now, what does she swallow, let me ask her" they were insane! then they assumed 1 of 2 things, that if i had seen a penis before then i've had sex, or that i haven't seen one before. god i am not that sheltered. ive seen them before. didn't really wanna see james' but hey whatever floats their boat.

do you know how ard it is to type right now? hard baby hard

yeah so smoked without getting caught by everone, saw james penis, had a song sung to me about me blowing some guy, figured out how to roll a joint. made fun of everyone that walked by in Six Flags for 1 1/2 hours. got over my fear of falling. watched harry potter 1, remember the titans (again), Now and Then, and pay it forward. the last two were really good. i almost cried at the end of pay it forward. everyone should watch that movie. i would have bawled if i hadn't been sitting on a bus. yeah 6 hour drives suck. i am so sore from sitting all weekend.

we almost got kicked out of the hotel last night because there was prolly 17 people in their room and we all sang 'the roof is on fire'.

oh my god. i came to a great conclusion. no matter what the guy looks like, when they play guitar they are so freakin hot!!! james is okay, but god his voice is awesome in a weird way. and mikey is hot and even hotter when he's playing guitar. we had like 4 people bring thier guitars. heaven. nothing hotter than a guy playing guitar, i'm telling you. especially if they're already hot. i'm going to regret writing that about him being hot when i sober up but hey what the hell.

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