I'm about to freak out again. I have to go to the doctor for my panic attacks. maybe she'll prescribe me xanex. my friends would shit bricks if I got prescribed to klonapin (no i wouldn't sell it to them!). Anyway, last night at work I had a panic attack. I don't know what triggered it, but I was standing there doing my work and it was lightening a lot and I just freaked out and went in the kitchen where JenniLou tried to calm me down, to no avail. I thought I was okay, and went to clear something and knocked a glass over and it broke and I started freaking out and crying and I couldn't stop.
I have that same feeling right now. My heart is racing, my fingers are moving so fast I don't know what I'm typing, I have flight of ideas really bad, it feels like there's a weight on my chest, I feel like I'm about to throw up my dinner. And yes, the lovely feeling like I'm going to die. I just know that if I go out something bad will happen to me.
It will be Tuesday before I can go see her. That's too late, I need something NOW, to help me stop freaking out.
Do any of you take pills for panic attacks? What do you take, and how much? How am I going to convince her that I need xanex? I've researched and it said sometimes they give you paxil or zoloft, which take up to 8 weeks to start working! I can't wait that long I'll die! AGH........
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